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I just battled motion sickness just to type a new post only to have it not published and forever gone. Thank you Mr.CrappyPhone!

Getting out of my self imposed solitude...

I've been hiding in my cave for so long. I guess it's time I get out. Truth hurts, meeting people sucks but that's just life. I can't shelter myself from everything just because things doesn't go my way. So, if you ever try to reach out for me, I might just send my SOS your way...

Rambling no1000000

Hello! Miss me much? Haha...
It's time for another rambling...
My aunt asked me about what interest me, what I want out of life. After thinking long and hard, (trust me, I really did) the answer is I don't know. I used to find life fascinating. Now, everything seems so dull to me. I guess it comes with being a recluse.
I guess since I can't close the old chapter that I find it hard to move on with my life. It's like a sentence hanging just waiting for me to put a full stop.
But sometime, you just need time and new inspiration. I never thought about this but it is possible for me to just abandon that chapter and open a new one. Maybe someday, I could revisit that old chapter and finish it or just leave it as it is. A part of my life that can never be changed but serves as a reminder of what should be avoid and what I'm capable of. Moving on...
My aunt said that when God closed one door for me, a lot more door are open. Now, I just have to search which door I'm going.
I guess it's time to put on my thinking cap (OMG, it's been so long since I have to do that).

The power of prayer...

No matter how ungrateful I am towards all the great things that God has given me, I'm blessed to have His mercy. I always asked but never give. I have a lot but never enough. I say I will but I won't. I start but never finish.

This time I want it all to change. Slowly but surely. I hope I have His guidance to persevere. For once, I want to be thankful. InsyaAllah...

The Difference Between Baseball and Life

Friends

I never quite understand why anyone wants to be my friend but I'm really glad that they did. I am not the easiest person to be with (fussy, bossy, sarcastic, etc...) but someway, somehow my friends can overlook those things and put up with me. I can never thanked you enough. May Allah bless your souls.

I'm sorry I've been pushing you away. I'm not good at dealings with my emotions. I just don't want to hurt you more than what I already done. I sincerely apologize. I hope you know that your thoughts are highly appreciated. I hoped I didn't worry you too much. I'm not okay, but I'm getting there.

Hello... (again!)

Hello again to those who has been with me through all these years. I'm sorry I haven't been writing for so long. I was going through something that I didn't quite understand and I just need some time for myself. I still haven't figure it all out but I'm not so lost anymore.

First of all, I want to apologize to everyone who has ever been intentionally or unintentionally harmed by my writing. I'm only human. My feeling and my thoughts are controlled by my emotions. I have not mastered the art of taking care of other people feelings. So if I ever wronged you in any way, please forgive me.


As you can see, I've deleted all my older post. I might regret it later because there's so much memories that I cherish are gone forever. I just need to learn to let go of the past and start again. I hope from now on, I can move forward on a positive note.